ahhhhh.... spring!

The other day I realized that this is the first spring I've been able to actually enjoy in at least five years.

Last year at this time I was pregnant and sick all day every day. The four years previous I spent working at a job so wholly demanding that I almost never had a guilt-free chance to pause and marvel at the flowers, the sunshine, the warm spring breezes.

But this year is different.

This year I am a mother. This year I am working my own hours, in my own company. This year I can take my laptop outdoors and soak up sunshine while being productive.

Or I can just scrap it all and spend a few hours on the porch swing with my son, watching him blow bubbles and stare in wonderment at every new thing. And, since everything is new, he finds it all magnificently fascinating.

Today I planted flowers, mulched the shrubbery beds and potted herbs. Little Man rolled around on his blanket in the grass, observing my every move and babbling contentedly.

This is paradise.

© Sarah K. Asaftei, 2009 unless otherwise sourced. Use allowed by express written permission only.

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before you become a mother...

...nobody can tell you:

• how you will break down and cry when you see your baby's face the first time.
• how you will melt when you hear his first cooing sounds - and keep melting at all the ones that follow.
• how you will never fully, deeply sleep again because you have one ear tuned to their cries.
• how you can be standing in a room filled with babies and still know when YOUR baby is the one crying.
• how you will somehow find the energy to stay awake and pleasant each day after months of sleepless nights, physical exhaustion, and hormonal swings.
• how you would throw yourself in front anything to protect your child.
• how tears fill your eyes at the mere thought of something happening to your baby. 

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© Sarah K. Asaftei, 2009 unless otherwise sourced. Use allowed by express written permission only.

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